All week I have been trying to eek out time to fill out my FWISD teacher application. I got all of my attachments ready and was prepared to spend an hour of this afternoon filling it out. Then I got online. Clicked around to find the application. And it wasn't where I was expecting it to be. As a matter of fact, I couldn't even find anything close to resembling the application I had been looking at for the past week.
I found their online application, only to have it tell me that there are no job opportunities. Which is funny, because they have a huge list of them available (even though I hadn't been able to find that information before today either). So now I don't know if this is a road block or yet another call to be patient. And now I really want a nap. Maybe that is what I will do since my original plans for this afternoon are gone. Sigh.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Another Day
I have managed to move to a more hour by hour laying things down that are out of my control. It is helpful to have certain things in my life calm down some. Others are totally hectic and crazy. (ie, I am working every night this week and have other craziness going on too.) It's amazing how one week things will seem dismal and the next doable. We are definitely in doable mode right now.
I am officially applying to teach at the school district where I grew up. I'm going to a teacher fair on Monday and we will see what happens. I think my biggest fear is that I will get a call back and be offered a job that day. I don't know what I would do. I desperately want a job and I don't want to move!!
My desire to stay where I am was enforced even more tonight when I spent some quality time with 4 munchkins who all know exactly who Miss Joanna is and how much they like being around her. The thought of not seeing them regularly breaks my heart. It's hard enough that my niece and nephew only see me every six months or so. And my friends that have become family. I know that we will always be friends, but it won't be the same. If moving is what God has planned for me, He is going to have to give me some SERIOUS strength. I don't like change.
So life is better. Held slightly more loosely. And harder, with my heart so firmly grounded here, the thought of leaving is not fun. We will see what the future holds. Tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.
I am officially applying to teach at the school district where I grew up. I'm going to a teacher fair on Monday and we will see what happens. I think my biggest fear is that I will get a call back and be offered a job that day. I don't know what I would do. I desperately want a job and I don't want to move!!
My desire to stay where I am was enforced even more tonight when I spent some quality time with 4 munchkins who all know exactly who Miss Joanna is and how much they like being around her. The thought of not seeing them regularly breaks my heart. It's hard enough that my niece and nephew only see me every six months or so. And my friends that have become family. I know that we will always be friends, but it won't be the same. If moving is what God has planned for me, He is going to have to give me some SERIOUS strength. I don't like change.
So life is better. Held slightly more loosely. And harder, with my heart so firmly grounded here, the thought of leaving is not fun. We will see what the future holds. Tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
That Kind of Day
Oh what a day. Many things happened, none of which I want to openly disclose to the world, but to summarize it all part of my conversation with my mom went like this:
Me: "I feel like my life is in a blender right now."
Mom: "But think of what an amazing smoothie is going to come out at the end."
My sister and I decided we would prefer the smoothie to be frozen yogurt based with minimal banana flavoring. I am thankful for family that can support me and make me laugh during this crazy time, when literally NOTHING seems to be stable. I'm to the point of having to minute by minute turn everything over to God. Oh me and my planning tendencies. So good in some ways and so hard in others.
And so tonight I am going to go get some little people hugs. And then sleep. Until the problems rear their ugly heads again tomorrow. And once again return to the minute by minute reminding myself that God knows exactly where I am going to be tomorrow and the next day and the next.
Me: "I feel like my life is in a blender right now."
Mom: "But think of what an amazing smoothie is going to come out at the end."
My sister and I decided we would prefer the smoothie to be frozen yogurt based with minimal banana flavoring. I am thankful for family that can support me and make me laugh during this crazy time, when literally NOTHING seems to be stable. I'm to the point of having to minute by minute turn everything over to God. Oh me and my planning tendencies. So good in some ways and so hard in others.
And so tonight I am going to go get some little people hugs. And then sleep. Until the problems rear their ugly heads again tomorrow. And once again return to the minute by minute reminding myself that God knows exactly where I am going to be tomorrow and the next day and the next.
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