Another Day

I have managed to move to a more hour by hour laying things down that are out of my control. It is helpful to have certain things in my life calm down some. Others are totally hectic and crazy. (ie, I am working every night this week and have other craziness going on too.) It's amazing how one week things will seem dismal and the next doable. We are definitely in doable mode right now.

I am officially applying to teach at the school district where I grew up. I'm going to a teacher fair on Monday and we will see what happens. I think my biggest fear is that I will get a call back and be offered a job that day. I don't know what I would do. I desperately want a job and I don't want to move!!

My desire to stay where I am was enforced even more tonight when I spent some quality time with 4 munchkins who all know exactly who Miss Joanna is and how much they like being around her. The thought of not seeing them regularly breaks my heart. It's hard enough that my niece and nephew only see me every six months or so. And my friends that have become family. I know that we will always be friends, but it won't be the same. If moving is what God has planned for me, He is going to have to give me some SERIOUS strength. I don't like change.

So life is better. Held slightly more loosely. And harder, with my heart so firmly grounded here, the thought of leaving is not fun. We will see what the future holds. Tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.