Not Much to Say

It's funny how I really only want to blog when bad things happen. Or really good things. But recently life has been a lot of blah broken up by an amazing trip to Galveston and a fun Birthday celebration with my family.

I did email my case worker at Methodist. She basically said that I am at the top of the list, but CPS can see all of the families, so with a 2 day old baby they went with the stay at home mom. And I can't blame them. If I was a CPS worker, I would choose a stay at home mom over a working mom too. Especially for a newborn. Now that my expectations have been adjusted, I'm ok with this development.

So no calls. This has lead to prayerfully considering taking 2 children. Or older children. In the last 4 1/2 months I have had 1 four day placement. Which while I can't complain, it makes me wonder if I am in the right age range/ number of kids.  When it comes down to it, I want a little baby. But sometimes what you want isn't what you need to do. And if you read back in my posts - fostering is not supposed to be about me!

I have been "complaining" a lot recently about how much free time I have and how hard it is. That I don't use my free time well, and I was ready to have a placement to take care of that. So God decided to give me the opportunity to babysit this weekend. And I didn't want to say yes. I had a crazy weekend last weekend, and a busy week this week, and all I wanted was a Saturday in my pajamas. But God nudged me back, and said remember all of that talk of free time not used well, Here is your chance to be a blessing to a friend who needs it. And now I am excited about my day with two sweet little boys and their older foster brother tomorrow.

But Sunday I am going to crash hard. :)